38 weeks today. And today instead of the CNM we saw the OB, and he made it very clear that I should not still be pregnant; that I should have induced seven days ago, get the baby out safely and be done with it. We should not be holding faith that because things look good [...]
Archive for December, 2008
From the padded cell of the insane and deranged
Posted in The Fourth Time on December 30, 2008 | 22 Comments »
Posted in Uncategorized on December 22, 2008 | 7 Comments »
Thank you, for all your kind comments and support… it means so incredibly much to me at this time. Truly. I don’t know how to articulate this to you, but I think you know.
So I said I will watch the dawn crack through this morning, because I needed some convincing that the light will indeed [...]
two letters
Posted in Grieving/healing/finding Hope, letters to baby on December 19, 2008 | 18 Comments »
Dear sweet little one,
so close and yet so far. You understand? I can easily reach down and feel the sweetness and comfort of your form- your spine, your feet and tiny fists pushing against my belly as you try to find a comfortable position. Your father said the other night it felt like someone trying [...]
seasonal post
Posted in Glow in the woods, just thinkin' on December 11, 2008 | 16 Comments »
Usually, when I start the car engine, the radio comes on and my dial is almost always set to NPR. But sometimes I am not interested in what they are discussing and I will try for a different station. And there is a holiday station, that has been playing holly jolly songs since November. That [...]
In Darkness Visible
Posted in Grieving/healing/finding Hope on December 2, 2008 | 6 Comments »
Thank you so much for all your comments on my previous post. I know I want to write a post in response regarding that p-word. er, just not today.
Today I will send you to the works of a photographic artist based in London. His name is Nicholas Hughes and I find his work to be [...]
