We’ve had a couple of overcast days, but still. no. rain. What a tease. Those clouds so pregnant with moisture, I know, but still, no rain.
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We got back from the cabin earlier than planned. It was bit much for me, even though it was beautiful. Cool breeze, verdant views, running river. But I had a deep urge to scream. Too many painful memories there. There used to be melancholic beauty in feeling pain amidst beauty. These days it is just brutal.
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Thanks for the suggestions re: what to do if someone tries to break in. Why is it it involves a cellphone? Am I the hopeless on-the-brink-of-extinction-creature who does not have her cellphone grafted to her arm, or some other body part? I never ever bring my cellphone upstairs with me when I go to bed. And I think my cellphone has crappy reception. What if it will not reach any living thing from inside my wardrobe?
The story is, one night I heard someone trying the lock on our side-gate, but I was not dead sure. It is a word.lock so we know it has been attempted. Now, what?
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Two days ago I tore the June page off our calendar on the fridge and muttered to R, “Another month gone. A freaking half year HAS. GONE. BY!”
The thing is, I am looking forward to Lyra’s half-birthday. I know, I am sick, but I am thrilled for it. It had been a wild six months.
But, the thing is, another 6 months has passed by in Ferdinand’s absence. Even if he’s not physically here, we still remember.
And so, I was looking at this, Shades of Ruby. Ruby is his birth stone. I defiantly feel in this month of mourning and remembrance I will wear no black but instead scream-in-your-face red. I want to buy up strands of big chunky red necklaces and drip in them all month long. Like blood.
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Number of unread emails in my Inbox: 11,070
No kidding. I don’t even want to know about unread blog posts. I just want to run and hide and hope no one notices.
How many unread mails do you have??
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I am not really doing anything pa.triotic for Saturday. How about you?
I’ll be drinking too much at a cookout for the 4th. It’s doubtful that anyone there will be sober enough to drive us all to see some fireworks. How’s that for patriotic?!
I love that you will wear red this month. Much love to you.
i don’t think in total i have 11000 emails in my inbox. holy cow. good luck. eek.
i love those ruby items on etsy. on the inside band of my engagement ring, my husband embedded a ruby, which is a symbol of love and protection…so fitting for this month. i’ll be thinking of you often, and wearing many rubied items for ferdinand.
are you having monsoon season?
I just returned from a picnic where I ate a hamburger and some jello salad, which seems very American to me, though I’m not sure about patriotic.
I think that wearing shades of ruby, however you like, is a very good way to mark July.
Thinking of you, and hoping July is as kind as it can possibly be.
I delete emails that I’m not going to read so I don’t have unread mail. It was part of my effort last year to get organized….to be efficient and productive. So, now my email is efficient but I’m still not.