Posted in Grieving/healing/finding Hope, anniversary on August 21, 2009 | 19 Comments »
(wanted to title this “Labor of Love” but found it a little too… cheesy)
This is the necklace R made for me, on the day before Ferdinand’s anniversary.
He was not impressed with the technical quality and workmanship of the previous necklace but refrained from his criticism. Instead, he told me how it was made and that [...]
Posted in anniversary, just gibberish on August 12, 2009 | 10 Comments »
I have been trying to sit down to write a post. All these thoughts I had in my head the past two weeks, they are fast escaping me as I make feeble attempts to grasp at the shreds. “STOP!” I yell, but they are not listening, only running faster, taunting me, wagging their fingers at [...]
Posted in anniversary on July 29, 2009 | 23 Comments »
Before Ferdinand was born, there were of course speculation of when, if there will be any coincidences with birthdays of friends, relatives, friend’s friend, or friend’s friend’s niece…
Now, I know who shares his birthday. And, gosh, you would think me sick, but I am glad, that Ferdinand shares his birthday with Rosepetal’s firstborn son V [...]
Posted in Grieving/healing/finding Hope, Life after, anniversary on July 13, 2009 | 10 Comments »
It is so searing hot I nearly burned my hands opening the car door. But, you know, grief does not melt under heat.
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Sliced off a small piece of flesh from my thumb while cutting up mushrooms to throw into the stew. Knife was freshly sharpened by my in-home dedicated knife-sharperner husband so the cut was [...]
Posted in Grieving/healing/finding Hope, anniversary on July 5, 2009 | 10 Comments »
One of the wings broke off, the first time I wore it. Why did I even put wings on it?
Goodness, I don’t know. I just know that I saw this and was immediately drawn to it, goose pimples running all over me, the hair standing on the back of my neck. In some ways, it [...]
Posted in Grieving/healing/finding Hope, anniversary, just gibberish on July 3, 2009 | 4 Comments »
We’ve had a couple of overcast days, but still. no. rain. What a tease. Those clouds so pregnant with moisture, I know, but still, no rain.
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We got back from the cabin earlier than planned. It was bit much for me, even though it was beautiful. Cool breeze, verdant views, running river. But I had a [...]
