bottleneck

As minutes crawl past, I felt more and more my reply to my friend was just crap. It was all about me, me, me, what i think, what i feel, what i fear, my own total load of crap.
Then she wrote back, dropping the subject and asking instead, “What about YOUR life? What are your [...]

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teetle-totter-teetle-totter

Some days I feel brave and new. I tell myself, “I can do this. I can take big strides now, and feel sure about it. I feel good. I can do it. I. Can. Do. This, Damn. It!” That special spot in my heart does not feel so sore and I almost can shake my [...]

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Name it

Oh, you sweet souls who left such lovely comments on my previous post… bless your hearts! Thank you for your thoughtful replies, which put me to shame, as I have been phenomenally crappy with comments of late.
On the other hand… I know there will be people (including people related to me) who gasp (secretly) in [...]

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fire aftermath

Photos of the aftermath of the fire that nearly came through our community.
We drove up last week and took a small hike up a small hill to see where the fire stopped. It was rather close. If the wind direction had not changed, you will read of my cursings as we file papers with our [...]

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midnight braindump

I am surprised at things that I get surprised at.
Like how some mornings the first thought that enters my head, as I open my eyes and see Lyra laying next to me is: “I can’t believe he died. I can’t believe after two years I still have problems believing this.”
Like how astonished I felt when [...]

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safe

“There are four cars behind us,” R breathed as he glanced into the rearview mirror. We were bumping along the gravel-covered Control Road, eating the dust of the cars rambling ahead of us, leaving behind dust for cars behind us to swallow.
“Will our cabin be safe, papa?” Sophia asked from the back.
R and I looked [...]

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