Some days I feel brave and new. I tell myself, “I can do this. I can take big strides now, and feel sure about it. I feel good. I can do it. I. Can. Do. This, Damn. It!” That special spot in my heart does not feel so sore and I almost can shake my [...]
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teetle-totter-teetle-totter
Posted in Life after, just gibberish on November 3, 2009 | 5 Comments »
funny lens
Posted in Life after, just thinkin' on October 30, 2009 | 9 Comments »
“Look into the spoon where it caves in, what do you see?” the science instructor asked.
“I see myself, upside down!”
“Upside down! I’m upside down!”
“OK,” the instructor returned, “can you make yourself appear right side up?”
“Stand on my head!!!!!!”
“OK, go ahead and try it and see if it works!”
“NooooOOOOOooooooOOOoooo….!!”
“But if you look on the other side [...]
letter 10.19.2009
Posted in Letters to Ferdinand, Life after on October 19, 2009 | 6 Comments »
My dear son Ferdinand,
it is autumn, though where we are that is not easily discernible as the weather seems fickle. The long sleeve’s and sweaters await their turn in boxes, some still with tags attached. As I pulled out some boxes from under our bed to search for clothing I saw a box that belongs [...]
circle of life (& Lyra’s birth story)
Posted in Grieving/healing/finding Hope, Life after, Lyra on October 9, 2009 | 16 Comments »
(Deep breath, now. For
this
is
an
ultra
super
long
post
Brevity: Not. My. Forte.)
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As the mercury makes its slow descend, we here in the valley of the sun are all squirming with excitement. Stretching, we wiggle our fingers and toes, ready to spread out in the warm sun and cool breeze. Park days are back in business again and every weekend is [...]
midnight braindump
Posted in Life after, just gibberish on September 14, 2009 | 14 Comments »
I am surprised at things that I get surprised at.
Like how some mornings the first thought that enters my head, as I open my eyes and see Lyra laying next to me is: “I can’t believe he died. I can’t believe after two years I still have problems believing this.”
Like how astonished I felt when [...]
