Before Ferdinand was born, there were of course speculation of when, if there will be any coincidences with birthdays of friends, relatives, friend’s friend, or friend’s friend’s niece…
Now, I know who shares his birthday. And, gosh, you would think me sick, but I am glad, that Ferdinand shares his birthday with Rosepetal’s firstborn son V (please go over and remember with her too). And, today is also Tash’s wedding anniversary and Bella’s birthday. It brings me to my knees that she writes about it all in one post, with no qualms, like only Tash can do. By chance we got to write on a groupblog and back then she found time to dig back through my debris to find out what happen, and also to discover that we share significant dates. I was just thinking, some days back, thanks-be-to-whoever-is-out there, that it is Tash. Having read of bereaved moms who gets shunned, or treated as invisible, I am relieved that it is Tash. Because somebody else would probably have struck me off their address book, and ran far, far away, crossing her fingers at me, garlic cloves tied around her neck. Of course, I wish no one shared dates like this, but in the darkness you gotta find that relief somehow.
So, I hope Tash is hitting the pinata hard, and having a swell time with Bella, The Police playing in the background, followed by Beatles, of course. (And we’ll be there behind you as you break the news about the Beatles, Tash.)
I am wearing a necklace today, but I’ll write about it another day. I just wanted to say thank you for remembering with me, for walking along. I am grateful.
Like clockwork, they remember, and started drawing pictures. This is Sophia’s, with giant birds, flying and walking on the ground, on a windy day.
Stars, stars, stars
And Val is still coloring but here’s her picture, with a magical tree that grow different types of leaves, and stars and hearts…
And she drew Ferdinand and herself connected by a cord, “we’re forever connected”, she said.
Ferdinand my son, two years ago on these days, we looked into your face, knowing we will not watch you blink your eyes as the light of day flooded the room, knowing we will not hear you utter a sound, ever. That was very difficult to understand, why.
Today, I think you have your journey to take. I truly believe you voyage among the stars, making your home amidst unseen Universes and doing what you enjoy. I look up and always think of you. I miss you, always will. Your absence is a fact, so is our love for you.